actually, i think that's just a deep seeded bit of my character. if i were making a personality test, one of the questions would be "If given a bag of jellybeans, I: a)eat it all in one sitting. b)share it with my friends. c) put it out in a candy dish. d)categorize and ration it over a period of days. e)pack it for tomorrow's lunch."

there.

i have much work to do today and my mind is wandering.

i don't think that i have a very good idea what sort of impression i make on other people. i want to devise some way to test this. some way to ascertain how i am percieved by the people around me. i don't even have a very good idea what i look like. i mean, i recognize my face, and know where the ends of my body are from the inside. i'm used to being inside my body, so this not knowing doesn't translate into some general clumsiness. it's more that i don't know how my body fits into the world around it. i can't look at other women and say, "she has a body similar to mine" because i can see the "she" but i can't picture the "mine". i don't even have a very good idea how tall i am in relation to other people. I occasionally walk up to someone and am amazed that they are simply taller than i am. you would think this sort of thing would be obvious.

i guess i'm gonna go be responsible and clean the bathroom now. poop.