two: there is a girl in my film class who is from a different country. since i am so uncultured and untravelled i cannot tell you which one. she has a beautiful soft lyric accent. and she always looks sad. i saw her today, walking out of a bookstore, and she smiled at me. a genuine smile. she looked happy. i smiled back. i was happy. i don't know if it was me, or the bookstore, or the weather. or whoknows?

three: last night on my way home from class i walked past a man in a funny orange jumpsuit sort of thing, except i think the jacket and pants were actually separate. and he was standing next to his motorcycle waiting for someone or something. you could see the waiting in his body. i asked him to give me a ride home on his motorcycle, because i've never ridden on one. it was me.

four: i want to join some religious order in a very rural and beautiful part of the world. i want to maintain the monastery garden and hike miles to a well to get water and all these things. i want cleansing ritual fasting. i want to take a vow of silence and not speak for ten years. i want a life of utter simplicity and contemplation. i want my world to be encompassed in that world of feet in the earth and ritual. and then wake up one day, ten years after i arrived and say good morning and walk down the mountainside, and back out into the world.

five: if i had no family this is what i would do.

six: to have no family, no one. this is cannot begin to imagine. this is something to fear. this Is fear.