so i'm being really stupid and wishywashy about dropping this class. i really can't not drop something, and this is about the only thing i am capable/willing to drop. but talking to the teacher after class today, about to hand her the slip to sign, it occurs to me that i could talk to my color teacher and try to work something out to take an incomplete and basically put that class on hold and finish all my work for it in the beginning of the summer. this would actually be really great, because that class takes up so so so much of my time. its only three credits and 200 level, but i spend at least 12 hours a week in class and doing work for class. so it would free up a lot of time, and be much less stressful to work on the projects on my own terms throughout the rest of the semester, and then finish up in the first week or two of school. i will, of course, offer to do an extra project of some sort, given that i would be getting extra time.

i don't really want to drop this other class, because i did put a bunch of time into it already, and its interesting stuff and good teachers and stuff i should know, given my background, interests etc. and i might have to retake it if i drop now.

and for some reason i feel really guilty about it all.

so then after talking to them and feeling guilty and worried i went out and bought things. tsk tsk. i got ceedeez and books. i got more Johnny

Clegg and Savuka (Third World Child) where mostly the first three songs or so are very familiar and the rest i don't think i've every heard, which just goes to show that small children have short attention spans. i also got The Ramones (Rocket to Russia), and Talking Heads (Speaking in Tongues). and then i went to dawn treader and that was good. yay! and i ate lindor balls and a man on the street wanted me to give money for some project and i had no cash and he said "that's ok, just thanks for stopping and thanks for having such a beautiful smile. it made my day." and all in a very honest not smarmy hitting on sort of way. so i smiled more.

okay. i have lots and lots of work to do first part of this week. and if i can get all of it accomplished without panicking, i will be very proud. i have a paper to write, mostly. but then there's all the rest of my regular work on top of that, and trying to get this class stuff figured out. and a meeting for study abroad.

i'm gonna go into responsible mode any second now. but first i'm gonna go eat dinner.

also go to: http://www.livejournal.com/users/galaxor, my friend Galaxor's journal and read about his bus plan. this is why i love ryan. ryan definately passes the humanity test.